by dmac » Sat May 28, 2016 12:22 pm
Unfortunately, I'm already catching flak about my involvement in the tv show, about my malleable relationship with LE, and even about how I spent my time in Quincy earlier this week. I don't understand much, if any, of it. Nor should I.
[How and Why did someone obtain my 3rd grade essay, "How I Spent My Christmas", just to claim I flip-flopped on glove-free snowball fights?! What does that have to do with Keddie?]
Some misunderstand what I've said in the flurry of posts I've made since returning. Alas, that I can see. Some of my posts did not go through, so I rewrote them in haste. I've been posting as quickly as possible to get the memories on record, as I didn't have time to take notes. I concede the majority of my recent posts make perfect sense, but not all.
As to my involvement in the show, the producer requested it the very day PCSO agreed to participate. It was hastily put together, and it was very hectic to keep up with my daily grind as well as meet the commitment. It was mad.
I was filmed so not to be recognizable on the screen, and remain under my dmac moniker. As for wealth, they arranged for all travel and are supposed to compensate for my expenses, but it looks like this trip will still leave me deep in the red. I lost two days of work on top of spending 27 of 48 hours traveling back and forth. This was no holiday. It was great to meet up with PCSO, but this was no joy trip.
I fought like hell to get the production to pay for Deb's travel and expenses to Quincy as she's such a critical part of breaking the case. They explained it's a startup show and they're severely limiting expenses (to the point they're foolishly arguing over paying out the meal per diem promised me, leaving me further in the red).
I've given them as much assistance as I can because I want their episode on Keddie to be as ACCURATE & COMPLETE AS POSSIBLE. If this is going to be a good show, I want to enhance their abilities. That's not ego, that's simple win/win logic.
I tried my best to give a good interview, but I've gone from radio announcer to being very timid in front of a mic. I'm exceptionally emotional about the case, and broke down once when I was asked what I thought the victims went through. It was a poorly worded question, and I don't believe it was intended to draw emotion- it was worded from a response to another Q I'd just given. I was still quite upset by it, putting my hand up to the camera and demanding it be stricken. After that, I was admittedly less cooperative, but that's mainly because we did almost three hours straight through with a three minute break to fix equipment. I did it on three hours sleep, and was a zombie when I first got there, and became squirrellier as time drew on. I'd get Qs that I'd intentionally answer in a way they couldn't put on TV, but that wasn't to be belligerent but to give info that may lead to a better Q. It was a mish-mash, and I hope they make something good from it, because I was as helpful as I could be under the stressful circumstances.
The TV show requested my involvement because of the ramifications this site in particular has had on the case, and due to my collaboration with Special Investigator Gamberg and Sheriff Hagwood. It goes without saying this would never have happened had Josh's site not been put down like the rabid dog it (and he) is.
If anyone doubts the sincerity of current PCSO's motives, they need look no further than the press impact they've made. After a silence of 32 years, the case is getting exponentially more attention than it did when the murders occurred, and it's carried nationwide. Their approach is stating the case was an easily-solvable murder hindered by a cover-up. They've taken a 'no-going-back' stance.
Anyone doubting the earnestness of Gamberg's & Hagwood's motives and openness must also not trust my own work or opinions. Many fear I've gone feral. Many believe I've gone soft. Most longstanding jackasses are so blinded by their 'open-mindedness' that anything's possible SO LONG AS DMAC IS WRONG. At this point, I have no time for naysayers and politely ask them to leave the forum. This is not a place for morons.
Deb and I were referred to Mike Gamberg as the new Special Investigator by none other than Don Stoy, a major participant in the corruption of Plumas and this case. Thus began my dubious suspicions of Mike's role in this melodrama. I've spent 2-3 years going from loathing to collaboration with Gamberg. When I first emailed the Sheriff to verify Mike was officially involved and it was okay for me to discuss the case with him, he, to his credit, gave a brief reply similar to this:
"Yes, Detective Gamberg is officially in charge of the Keddie case, at my behest. I don't want to turn this into a pissing contest. Please work with him."
Mike and I began building a rapport. We eventually began trading info and leads- which paid off. I got all the stolen Keddie Files together (which I'd boxed up for safe storage) and mailed them back to him. That created a great deal of good will, and tremendously improved matters. That's when our relationship, and the case, began cooking.
I trusted the files Josh stole would be in safe hands- and they are. I saw them meticulously integrated into Mike's categorized library of Keddie case files. Once resting impolitely in frayed boxes, Mike has turned the scattered papers and photos into a cross-referenced library. To illustrate, Mike and I were joking about how intolerable our partnership was at the beginning. He whizzed around in his chair, pulled out a binder entitled "dmac's forum" and wanted to read my first email to him. I said, "No! No! It's too embarrassing!"
It is.
Something far more potent is the pink suit. I saw B&W shots at the back of a crime scene photo binder and Mike didn't know what it was, but I said "it's the f-ing pink suit!" Mike pulled out his magnifier, looked at the evidence card in the photos, grabbed another binder from the bookcase, and confirmed it was the pink suit by looking up the cross-referenced evidence number. A WOMAN'S suit, not related to Tina but, perhaps, to Sue. Within sixty seconds, we'd solved a decades-long issue, and we spent several minutes discussing it's possible importance, that it was 'hidden' in the swimming hole near the wye.
That's collaboration.
I only had a few hours in the Keddie room, and much of it was spent meeting people and discussing how I got into the case and how the deb/dmac/pcso collaboration began; it's a widely-heard anecdote in certain regions. Greg, Mike, and I all were talking ideas and opinions. Meanwhile, I was going through as many binders as I could, trying to see everything. I didn't have time to obsess over any single photo or file.
It was a very rushed experience, traveling so long for so little time. I tried to do as much as I possibly could. Fortunately, I'm familiar enough with the case and other photos to know when something stands out, and I made several important discoveries at first glance (killers left bloody clothing! Two packs of Camels! Tina was in the big bed! LE thought the downed line very important! The autopsies are truly a crock of shit! Same weapon used on Sue and Dana! etc etc)
Those that don't like the results of my visit, or distrust my relationship with current PCSO, can go fuck themselves. Your opinions were shat upon by the results we've delivered. If you don't believe the bottom line, quit smoking meth and let your paranoia dissipate.
"Back off, man. I'm a scientist."
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